Juz me

2012-02-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

说我不知道说我不了解其实我都了解。
Wasting your time for being with someone that doesnt care.
Then waste somemore to cry over someone who left.
Then waste more time and stake ur life and studies and other stuff on a heartless person.
Spending the next few trying to find someone who shares the same frequency.
Well. I understand but what i dont is that if you already knew that heartless man who doesnt love you would break ur heart why still hold on?
Its not I dont understand. Its I know how much it hurts that I dont understand why people still wants to do that to themselves?
Well. You say its love, but do you really know what love is? You think its that long term infatuation that you feel for that person. Its not just something that you cant understand. Its something that doesnt end.
随便。我都不管了。不愉快我都藏在心中。

2012-01-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

你不知道电话这头的我在哭泣，
我怀念以前的我们。

2011-12-22T23:32:00.001+08:00

在这个荒废已久的地方。
有谁记得。
在这里的某个角落。
有个孤独的小女孩。

2011-12-15T02:50:00.001+08:00

那莫名的失落感。
曾经吞噬了我。

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这里都快长野草了。但我想应该也不会有人来的。

2011-12-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

生命中最恐怖的感觉，莫过于在喧闹的街上感到寂寞。在人群中感到孤独。在爱情中感到害怕。在家里感觉不到温暖。

- kaiko
Just another inspiration.

2011-11-13T00:58:00.001+08:00

這世界上每個人都是自私的。

2011-10-30T23:04:00.000+08:00

寂寞的心靈。
學會了。累了就別解釋。因為沒必要，自己知道就好。

2011-10-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

有時候，不說不是因為沒有心事。
是因為怕打擾別人。
有時候，不哭不是因為不難過，
是因為不想別人看見自己的脆弱，
不想讓他們擔心自己。

2011-10-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

我真是个不坦白的小女生。

跟我聊心事，谈到开心的，10句有9句是假的。
我就是这样。不知道为什么，很想你知道，却又不想你知道。
所以我决定，就让我一人承担。
你说什么都否认，因为在别人眼里，我都会是一个开朗的人。
哭过就好了。
这句话太好了。
我说我很开心，其实我在流泪。
我说我没空，其实根本就很寂寞。
我说我很快乐，其实心明明就在淌血。
我说。。。
其实就是这样。
我现在很开心。

2011-10-12T20:34:00.000+08:00

有时候有些话能让我思考一整天。
你说。。。
那为什么还要当我的朋友呢？
听起来好像好糟哦。
那为什么还要当我的朋友呢？
我真的。。。
那为什么还要当我的朋友呢？

真是百思不解。
为什么呢？

2011-10-12T20:28:00.001+08:00

今天。我消失一夜。

2011-10-10T18:37:00.000+08:00

好朋友？

是你的定義還是我的定義？
你是我的好友嗎？我是你好友嗎？
我不知道。你不知道。反正也沒人會說出來。
現在是嗎？以後呢？以前呢？
好朋友。
是每天一起嘻笑的姐妹？
是每天膩在一起的姐妹？
是有說有笑一起度過每一天的人？
還是哭時陪你哭，
笑時一起笑，
瘋狂時一起瘋狂，
吵架時鬧得翻天覆地，
愛時卻愛的要死要活，超級噁心的人？
她是不曾在乎你的感受損你的人？
她知道吧？就是要你生氣。
她是在你最無助的時候在你身旁的人？
她知道吧？此時她是你唯一的支柱。
她是每天罵你白癡後，再拍你的頭說你頭好大的人？
她知道吧？你不會介意。她也就是喜歡這樣。
還有好多好多喔~
就她不知道，你不知道的。。。

你們是。。。
過客？朋友？好朋友？家人？

2011-10-09T19:50:00.000+08:00

Studying with sisters @ study room <3

Ps. Kept one special photo to myself :P

I shall update more often after the exams :)

2011-10-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

@怪诞心理行为学：人的烦恼就12个字：放不下，想不开，看不透，忘不了。

人。
是最坚强，也是最脆弱的动物。
哭，是因为坚强了太久。
笑，是因为终于看开了。
说穿了，都是舍不得。
舍不得曾经拥有的曾经。
舍不得最初的心跳加快。
舍不得手里曾经握着的。
舍不得心里总是挂念的。
舍不得一直深爱着的他。
舍不得放下所有的一切。
时间回不去了，
该放的，就放了吧。
该忘的，就忘了。
就像被汹涌的海浪吞噬的沙滩。
把沙子带来带走。
最后，剩下的都是最美的。
那些遗失的都找不回来了。

可能哪天海浪再次把它冲上沙滩。
我们都会用微笑去面对。

2011-10-01T02:06:00.000+08:00

你的心正淌著血。。。

我們都知道很痛。
但是客套話我們都聽膩了。
家人還有甚麼客套不客套的。
我說好好休息，爭做起來！

2011-09-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

@微博星座：当朋友忽略你时，不要伤心，每个人都有自己的生活，谁都不可能一直陪你。
@最神奇的心理学：你们曾有过这种感觉吗？见到自己的知己或好友，和别人玩得比较好而吃醋？

Haizz...
有时候。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我想。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
是我。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
可是。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我不。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我心。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
真的。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
不喜。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
不说。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

2011-09-25T12:12:00.000+08:00

今天，吃完午餐，我决定做一件事。
就是一个人度过漫长的星期天。
在没有别人的生活里会是怎样的？
在没有我的生活里你们又会是怎样的？
实在是很好奇。
与其每次都说我想，我决定今天就实践一次吧。
1230之后的我和你，很像也没差。
反正我就是那种如果没事就没人找的那种人，
而既然没人找我，我也不想打扰别人。
我昨天想了一整个早上，
4点，一个人，在床上，黑暗中，宁静的，想着。
其实自己本来就是可有可无的，
365天里，有几天手机不是晾在那儿。
这几年的生日，不是一个人度过的。
有几个夜晚，不是一个人。
伤心时，有几次不是强忍着笑容。
落泪时，有几次简讯里不是嘻嘻哈哈的。
还有，几次打字时，不是失落时打出的。

2011-09-25T02:57:00.000+08:00

朋友。一个既熟悉却又陌生的字眼。
讨厌被取代的感觉。

有时候，希望他们懂。
有时候，希望他们知道。
有时候，希望他们了解。
有时候，希望他们谅解。
有时候，希望他们记得。
有时候，希望他们听到那些无声的言语，看到那些无形的泪滴。

2011-09-08T17:42:00.000+08:00

一个人的感觉。我爱。我恨。

一个人阅读。
一个人听歌。
一个人逛街。
一个人吃饭。
一个人睡觉。
一个人在家。
一个人读书。
一个人看电影。
一个人做功课。
一个人生活。

烦躁时，喜欢一个人静一静。
无聊时，喜欢这种简单的生活。
疑惑时，喜欢一个人思考的感觉。

寂寞时，讨厌没有人陪的生活。
失望时，讨厌没人关心的感觉。
被误会时，讨厌没人了解我。

伤心时，喜欢一个人静一静。
却又渴望有人看得到我内心的泪滴。

2011-09-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

老实说。

有时候，我不是不知道。
是说服自己说我不知道。
为什么？
其实我也不知道。
是不愿别人知道我的付出？
是害怕自己被拆穿？
其实，前面一段说出了我的心生。
但是我就是不喜欢别人，
懂得欣赏我的付出，
因为害怕因这样关系会有所改变。
我这个人很矛盾。
其实，我有时候很希望有人懂我。
但是我却又害怕自己知道有人知道我的付出。
所以两全其美的方法就是，
我说服自己说你知道我的用心。
你若知道也就藏在心里就好。

2011-09-04T00:33:00.000+08:00

有时候我发现你们的世界我进不去。
所以最后渐渐的我的世界谁也进不来。

有时候我发现我好孤单。
好想有个人陪。
好像有个人疼。

-孤单的我

2011-09-01T21:31:00.001+08:00

今天的我，

想一个人。
想你，

如此遥远，

又如此靠近。

想一个人，

度过寂寞的午后。

感觉好累，
瘫在床上，
想着想着。
我想，
陪你到最后，
但却，
迷失了方向。
窗外下着雨，
滴滴答答的。
谁又能听见，
我的心在哭泣？
雨停了。
阳光透进屋内，
洒在我的身上。
那痛得刺眼的光，
照亮了我的心房，
我好像明白了什么。

我到了足球草场。
阳光下，
原本不起眼的枯叶，
照成金黄色的，
扑满整个草原。
旋风卷起美人幽，
落叶们翩翩起舞。
突然，
一阵风吹过，
吹乱了我的思绪。
这就像，
浪花打在石头上，
把我砸痛了。
冷风吹在我脸上，
把脸冻僵了。

我的脸湿了，

视线模糊了。

好像有什么滑落我脸颊。

嘀嗒。

嘀嗒。

是雨吗？

冷风一阵一阵。
我的心就像碎玻璃，
很难拼凑，
很难愈合。

那种快窒息的感觉有谁知？

2011-09-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

有時候就是懶得解釋。沒必要。定義是你的事、生存是我的權力。

午夜的我。昏昏沈沈地。想著想著，睡著了。

Ps. 有時候會對生活感到不耐煩。有時候想想有個人疼。有時候想想以後的我。有時候想想別人可以更了解我。

2011-08-21T12:12:00.000+08:00

Outing with WYan!~

Wanted to go town initially but we stayed in the toilet for too long :X

Decided to stay at JP instead :)

Played make up in the toilet~ Walked for like dunno how many hours x.x

Well... Pictures below~

Ps. I hate how that incorrigible bastard disrupting our outings.

Although I feel that there is no need for the answering of all the calls and entertaining him and end up being unhappy,

I know there must be a reason behind all your tolerance.
But its just freaking irritating isnt it? Sometimes its that you play along that makes him so "entertained", I just feel that maybe the alternative of

ignoring his call is another way out. As in, there is no need to be afraid of anything or wad coz time will prove everything right?

2011-08-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

KBOX OUTING with Qiqi and Wyan.
WARNING!!! Scroll down at your own risk :X

2011-08-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

The rain falls because the sky can no longer handle its weight. Just like the tears fall because the heart can no longer handle the pain. 雨水落下来是因为天空无法承受它的重量，眼泪掉下来是因为心再也无法承受那样的伤痛。

外面正下着雨，我在屋内，坐在冰冷的地上，靠在充满复古风的木柜旁。微微的风吹在我的脸颊上，我呼吸着冷冷、带点湿气的风，突然觉得好平静。

我说什么都变了。
这年头什么不变？
心态变了。
外形变了。
想法变了。
观念变了。
性格变了。
什么都变了。
我们还在奢望什么呢？
奢望这找回那些找不回的最初、
那些曾经拥有？

我想念最初。
那颗真诚的心，单纯的笑容与温暖的声音。
感谢你就是你，还是依然一样。

2011-08-09T15:28:00.001+08:00

Slacking @ My Hse

(7th Aug '11)

Whee!~ Had so much fun... Munching on trash food and playing~

So many unglam pics :X

Love them ttm! :-*

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Slacking and playing @ JP~

(8th Aug '11)

Sry guys! >.< I only have Sinyi's pics . . .

Zi-lian so many pics sia . . . o.o

I edit until like siao... :X

So now, I shall post my pics :)

L O A D I N G . . . . . . . . . . . .

That should be all...
Lazy to arrange them in order le :X

Hmm...

>.<

:'(

T^T

TAT

~~~

Miss me . . .

2011-07-31T14:05:00.001+08:00

我喜欢一个人听着音乐，哼着歌，思考。
我喜欢繁体字，复杂的笔画，背后的含义。
我喜欢把想说的，想做的，毫不犹豫地，都做出来。
我就是喜欢这样的自己。

2011-07-28T18:26:00.000+08:00

2011-07-28T17:13:00.000+08:00

Outing yesterday to IMM with Yan, Jing and Sinyi!!!
Help Sinyi bought stuff for GG at Daiso and Giant.
Shop until wanna die liao but it was FUN!

I love them loads!!!! <3

Hmm... Just some random pics above :)
Homed at bout 10 yesterday. x.x Tired die.
I think this is bout all... Some more pic pic updates later :)

Some stuff I just don't get it but I hope my decision in believing in you again is right.

Its not that I get frustrated and all fed up everytime something happens and nag like shit its just that everytime I finally get some inner peace in me and believe in her, something happens again and you all told it to me making me feel that there is some truths I wanna know. Moreoever, those truths, I will never get.

2011-07-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

To：我常常倾诉的对象
From：我

我就是怪人一个。懂我的人知道，我要相信一个人可以需要一天，一个月或一年。要失去信任，一秒就行了。我可以这一秒开心，下一秒心情就跌入谷底。我心情转换可以很快。我喜欢找出事实，找不到我可能会疯掉。当下可能会一直念，但是给我一点时间让我冷静，我的心情就会恢复，也会相通。我喜欢用个角度看事情，所以以不同的角度，我看得到当下烦恼时我所看不到的。谢谢你们的体谅和忍耐。只是当下的我需要你们寒暄几句让我好过一点就行了。

2011-07-05T20:50:00.000+08:00

To: 这天看着这封信的你。
From: 7月25日的我。

当你在看这封信时，代表那一天已到来。离7月25日这一天又会是多久呢？一个月，两个月？一年，两年？还是就是明天？要记得不能哭，因为要让她永远记住你的微笑，快乐地让她一个人去旅行。她去旅行了，带着我们的祝福去了一个遥远的地方，那里什么都有，唯独没有悲伤与病痛。要永远记得你们开心的时光，你们曾一起度过的每一天，曾做过的每一件事。让它们作为你们之间最美好的回忆。她曾喂你吃饭，帮你洗澡，教你读书写字、穿衣、绑鞋带、和世界上所有你所不知道的事。你曾不小心地叫了她一声：“妈妈！”，不敢在她生病时见她，跟她顶嘴。她不轻易地向任何事情低头，但她却曾对你说她想放弃自己。她了解你的所有，当你认为没人了解你的时候，只有她知道你。她为你做了好多好多，你却永远不说出口对她的爱。她永远只让人看到她的微笑，跟你一样。她永远都嘴硬，跟你一样。她永远都不会直接表达爱，跟你一样。她永远都那么爱你，跟你爱她一样。这些话，永远都说不出。但写着这封信的我正流着泪，读着这封信的你是否也一样？耳朵旁传来她那熟悉的声音，那小时候模糊的曾说的话。她说：“不哭。。。不哭。。。”她帮你擦着眼泪说道。今天以后，你就不能再听到的声音，不能闻到的熟悉气味，不能碰触的那双温暖的手，不能在感受到的爱。那声音曾经骂过你、安慰过你、唠叨过你、叮咛过你。那气味曾陪伴过你度过你一生，直到今天。那双手曾握过你的手、打过你、摸过你、拍过你、陪你度过黑暗的夜晚。那份爱曾让你知道还有人爱你，曾无微不至的照顾你。而那份爱不曾停止。
我知道会来不及，因为我没有勇气。我知道现在还不迟，但我做不到。我只能在这里说：“我爱你。”我会好好的。我会想你。我会。。。我会。。。我会。。。

2011-07-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

@哲言心语：◎我喜欢在伤心的时候听伤心的歌，喜欢在开心的时候和在乎的人分享。我常常口是心非，想拒绝却开不了口；朋友挺多，但懂我的不多；不喜欢主动联系别人，但绝不是不在乎。我不喜欢欠别人，也不喜欢别人欠我。我很安静，也可以很疯癫。我就是我，不要觉得我没心没肺，我只是对很多事看得很开。
这就是我。

2011-06-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

无声的战争，就在某个夜里结束了。
我曾告诉自己什么都要三思而后行。
但心直口快的我永远做不到。
我很谢谢你的包容我的这一点。
但我不能容忍自己这样。
所以与其继续，不如让我们对彼此记恨下去。
可能我能接受这样的你。
因为若你想这样对自己，
对我来说也没感觉了，
只会觉得你很可笑。
但现在的我做不到。
所以恨我好吗？
因为我不能看着你盲目下去。
就算一天我也很难受。

2011-06-28T19:06:00.003+08:00

学习，要耐得住寂寞；恋爱，要经得起考验；婚姻，要懂得维护；成长，要靠逐步地积累；成功，要受得了煎熬；做人，须经得起风雨；幸福，要懂得珍惜；烦恼，要学会忘记。

2011-06-26T03:37:00.000+08:00

曾几何时，我这样想过。。。

希望有一种药能带走一切的悲伤。
希望明早起床就能忘了所有悲伤。
希望有人能看穿我的悲伤，安慰我。
希望自己在寂寞时，有人陪着。
但想想若没有悲伤，我又怎么感受所谓的快乐。
这种矛盾又复杂的情绪，真是折腾人啊。

-希望一切都过去的我。

2011-06-21T21:46:00.000+08:00

@一本书一句话一段情：越是熟的朋友，对话就越粗鲁；越是熟的朋友，行为就越猥琐；越是熟的朋友，开玩笑就越不计较；越是熟的朋友，你出来玩就越是要管你；越是熟的朋友，见面少了就越思念；越是熟的朋友，你一有错他就越毫不留面地骂你；越是熟的朋友，不开心时他想起的第一个人就越是你。

越是熟的朋友，就是当我在读着这的当儿，第一个就想到了你。

2011-06-21T15:03:00.002+08:00

@早安丶晚安丶心语：某一天，你的人生中不再有我。你叹气的时候我不会再去安慰你，你难过的时候我不会再陪你一起难过，你心碎的时候我不会再去陪你一起心碎。虽然我是一个喜欢嫉妒，有点霸道，不能容忍我喜欢的人爱着别人的人。但我依然希望你过的比我好，希望看到你幸福的过着每一天。

如果有一天，我真的消失了呢？

2011-06-19T01:10:00.001+08:00

就是这种感觉，对不起，是我不合群。
就像我不能参与你们的回忆，你也参与不了我的。
我有时候就只是一个旁观者。
而我也习惯了。

2011-06-17T15:22:00.001+08:00

其实有时候，

一个人静一静也不错。
坐在房里听着音乐。
在没人的地方走走。
一个人吃饭，逛街，看电影，旅游。
也不错嘛。
因为每到这时候变成幽灵的感觉又回来了。
我是个不善于表达自己内心想法的一个人。
因为以前释放的太多，
才发现当你失去一个人的时候，
你所有的寄托就这样化为乌有，
整个世界就像这样垮了。
以前的太依赖，
太无知，
太天真，
让我学会了，
有时候应该学会自己承担，自己面对，这一切。
因为其实有时候，我真的太烦了，要学着给别人空间，自己面对。

2011-06-13T01:04:00.000+08:00

I hate ppl seeing stuff that I really write from the bottom of my heart. But I guess this is the only way I get to realease everything somewhere as I know I need to. As you continue reading (if you are), you would know why I am doing this here coz I found out that I have no one to talk to about this at this point in time or more precisely for this period of time or maybe even from the beginning of this dreadful year. And I am starting to hate this more now.

I get this feeling every year during the holidays. People just literally forget all bout this friend of theirs during the holidays and I dunno why. And always at some point in time they would suddenly rmb you (maybe something triggered their thought) and ask Hi! what are you doing? My most common reply would be nothing rotting at home or watching show. Ending with a :). Simple short and sweet. And they would be like OH!~ Not going out or something. And for the next few days several this kinda smses would come in. Sometimes I really wonder... Hmm... are they waiting for me to ask them out or they dunno that i am rotting coz Hmm... maybe nobody really rmb me during holidays that is why no one is asking me out. Rotting at home, using com = no life! But i guess no one really gets the idea of that coz they have events everyday and they practically forgets bout you until they have nothing to do and OH! where's that friend of mine guess i have talked to her for a LONG time.

And I hate this coz this makes me have the thought that I am only a friend that you will think of when Hmm... I have no events this week and its gonna be boring so i shall ask her out since everyone else is unavailable. From past till now, i have always have this feeling that i am always a replacement for someone. Since sec one, since I heard that sentence that i will nv forget for my life. Since eveyone have been neglecting me for so long. Since everyone only finds me when they need someone. Since the start of this year. Since everything change since dunno when or maybe i can say it always have been like that. BUT I dun wanna be that someone. Coz I am me. and I wanna be that someone that even when you are doing something you would still think of me. I dun wanna always be that replacement.

But no one really cares anyway. I guess. It always have been like that.
After sec 1, after sec 2, after the past 6 months. Things changed. People changed.
I know i have been through this once last year. When i found out that i couldnt find the person i have always been going home with when i was in sec 1 and when everyone forgot about me during the holidays.
Another time this year. When i found out that i couldnt find the person i have been with for the past year.
And for being forgotten again.

2011-06-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

@微博经典语录：孤单，是你心里面没有人。寂寞，是你心里有人却不在身边。

现在的我心里其实也没什么人，身边说真的，也找不着几个人。
我怀念以前的自己，以前的我们。
以前的我从来不觉得身旁的别人心里想的和口中说的会不会是不一样的。
以前的我一直都认为身边的都是真心的朋友。
以前的我认为朋友都能倾吐心声。
以前的我对友情一直很有信心。
以前的我觉得朋友都会理解我。
但现在的我已经找不会当时的自己。
我好想念当时的你。
是你让我从新相信友情，但也是你在一次的让我对它失去信心。
知道现在你一直没让我感觉到你又想挽回我们的友情，
帮我找回以前的我，
让我帮你找回以前的你，
让我们回到开始，
让我觉得你还是那个你，
让我觉得你还是我的朋友，
让我认为你可以接受现在的我，
让我觉得你真的了解我，
那个以前那么了解我，那么贴心，那么诚实，那么快乐，那么疯狂的你去了哪里？
我因为你，因为一个败类，因为他而改变了。
你因为一个败类而改变了。
我们都变了。
我很努力的找回我们。
你呢？

2011-06-05T14:33:00.002+08:00

2011-06-04T14:58:00.000+08:00

要告诉自己，记住最初的感动。
因为时间久了，什么也都可能忘了。
我忘了最初的自己，最初的我们。
我忘了最初的你。
我忘了那时候我们。。。
我忘了那时候我所忘的。

你忘了吗？

2011-05-22T16:45:00.000+08:00

KBOX OUTING with clique...

My house...

KBOX...

Me camwhoring...

THE NEWLY WEDS...

WYan camwhoring...

GROUP PIC IN THE TOILET...

2011-05-22T16:25:00.000+08:00

Outing with SINYI!!! <3

2011-05-22T00:18:00.000+08:00

有些东西。。。

常用的字看久了，会忘了该怎么写。
镜子照久了，会觉得镜子里的自己仿佛不是自己。
熟悉的人相处久了，可能有天会觉得很陌生。
熟悉地方待久了，也许有天会忘了路该怎么走。
快乐久了，会不会就忘了快乐是什么呢？

2011-05-20T16:56:00.000+08:00

2011-05-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

别说我傻。
Just because I feel that i have need to be there for you.
But after trying for loads of time.
I found out actually maybe, I should leave you.
It isnt easy.
Pls dun think that it is easy as it is.
I tried.
But I couldnt.
Like you did and you failed.
But I knew I had a reason and you did nth wrong.
I used ur perception to think of things.
I couldnt find a extremely good reason for you to hold on.
So... Since its so tiring. Why dont you let go?
Its fucking getting tiring. And you ought to know its just a game of a puppet and a puppetier.
Not fun at all. Coz it was suppose to be about love.
If you cant see it then so be it. Dun say i dun understand.
I tried to. Maybe i could, you just didnt know.
I tried to help you make ur life better. But you didnt want to. In turn making mine worse.
I am just another selfish bitch. But why cant you see the best for all?
You said you can see so wad?
You said you are happy. I cannot see it.
How can I believe it?!
I really dunno how this is going to go on. Coz it looks like it will never end.
And I FUCKING HATE THIS!

2011-05-15T18:28:00.001+08:00

罗志祥舞法舞天之一万零一夜新加坡站好看惨了！ ♥ ♥ ♥

Yi ning, Kim, Jian shu and Tao guang, thanks for the awesome day yesterday!
Thx to my mom who let me go out for literally the whole day yesterday. I know you are worried that i would be too tired. But I really tot it was time to give myself a break from all the crap i have been going through this year. <3
It was awesome! How i wished yesterday will never end. I have started to miss him already. : (
It was really a awesome break that I gave myself since the whole stressful and horrible months of 2011.
I seriously hated my life for the past few months. But after yesterday I tot it might really chg for the better! <3
IMY.
Come back kays? I promise i will attend any event. I might even join next years sfc but I really need to see how eveything goes.
Hmm... Pics will be uploaded some other day.
I just cant stop thinking of him. :X
Hmm... shall go grab some food le. BB!

Loads of love for him,
Kaiko

2011-05-07T00:13:00.000+08:00

生命中的不如意，就有如突如其来的大雨，永远不知道乌云何时会散去。
我和你的回忆。就这样。随着时间。逝去。

2011-04-21T20:29:00.000+08:00

Friends sees your smile, but true friends sees the tears behind it...

2011-04-17T10:43:00.000+08:00

我不是你。
If you hadn't realised it, I am not you.
你可以不管，你认为朋友不算什么，没关系，但我很珍惜友情。
你说我笨，你问我为什么不能放下，为什么不能不管，为什么要把自己弄得那么痛苦。
你永远不会了解我有多么珍惜朋友，他们就像我的家人。
家人有事我不能不管。
如果你认为你可以不管随你，但你为什么要控制我想做什么？
每天骂我说为什么要这么做。
我不理他，你骂我，因为你很难做人。
我理他，你又叫我别管那么多。
到现在我才发现，为什么要听你的？
TMD干你屁事？
我是我，不是你，不要装着一副什么都懂的样子好吗？！

2011-04-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

You know what? I know of this very person who claims to be my closest friend. She looked like her, she acts like her and talks like her. But something tells me its not her inside. After a few weeks of spending my time with her in school, I found out that it really not my friend, so I decided to write a letter to her telling her that she have changed a lot, maybe she is not my friend just someone who looked like her.

She wrote back saying that she had not changed, she had always been herself... But she felt like a stranger to me, I didnt know her anymore... I lost her, I was sad. But the person who claimed to be her, kept insisting that she was her. She was lying, I was dissapointed. Some things lost wont be back, like someone or their trust.

For a moment there when I received her letter, I thought I mistook her. Time can change anything and maybe she just changed. But I could not accept the new her... Many told me to to be optimistic, everything is good for a change. They told me to accept her, its her life. But I couldnt. I wasnt the only one who felt weird. But soon they all put it down. But I couldnt. So I chose to leave it.

I thought maybe she was taken over by a monster. She can change from normal to weird then back and forth in cycles everyday. She couldnt see it for herself, she didnt knew. She didnt want to accept this fact that she changed. I couldnt bear to leave but I had to. I had to leave this stranger and find my way back in the dark to my friend. The one I knew from the start.

Today is the second day of search. I wonder how long can I hold until I find her, or maybe I might break down in the middle of nowhere and never find her back again.

2011-04-10T00:22:00.000+08:00

4月9日。

亲爱的，你今天生日哦，祝你生日快乐。
说们认识很久了，其实很像也没很久啦，大概2年多。
这两年经历过的也不算很多，真正的开始也很像是去年。
所以我们也不能说上是经历过很多的好朋友。
但我永远会记得我们这段友谊的。
记得你去年说，你不会让我一个人过生日的。（我很感动呢）:-*
今年很对不起啦，没能和你过。
明年吧。希望我们会有明年。
我们曾说过彼此不会消失在我们的生活中的，但其实未来没人能够预测。
我们就让时间证明我们是否能成为一辈子的好友吧。
不对。是一辈子的家人。

Kaiko。
祝今天生日的你，幸福。

2011-04-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

惭愧。
惭愧，因为一直没有全力支持你。
惭愧，因为在你最彷徨时没在你身旁帮你。
惭愧，因为在你泪流满面时，我还一直骂你。
惭愧，因为在你最无助时，我抛弃了你。
惭愧，因为我是一个很烂很烂的朋友。

I am just another crappy friend of yours, pls hate me...

2011-03-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

在不快乐的当儿，享受当下的快乐。

2011-03-14T01:41:00.000+08:00

找不回的回忆。。。

丢进深不见底的大海。
埋在肥润的土壤里。
再也找不回的回忆。
就让它慢慢随着时间逝去。
随着眼泪，不留下什么痕迹。

哭过就好了。
我陪你哭。
因为分手是需要练习的。
我知道你很难过，
但那只是小伤口。不痛。
而他也只是个错的人。
既然那不是你要的爱，
就放手吧。
就算舍不得，
还是做得到。

2011-03-14T00:55:00.000+08:00

Outing :)

Hiies finally with something xiang yang to tok about.
Today went out with WYan and Sinyi.
Went to Sinyi's hse to do some random "drawings" on their faces first.
And I proud to present my new zuo pin, Ng Sin Yi.
XD
Quite satisfied...
Anw... actually wanted to go orchard de but no time le, so decided to go Ikea instead.
Food was nice except a bit weird de pasta. Haha...
There was a foreign couple who sat beside us and asked us abt us taking pictures of our food coz they see a lot of ppl doing that in singapore.
They looked very satisfied with their food too :D
B4 that some other stuff happen XD
Dun say better... Sh...
The conv. during the meal was hilarious...
SInyi ah... XD
Anw after that went to anchor point meet mama...
Bought some bread and drove sinyi and wyan to bei hse there de market...
On the way, we stopped at the petrol station and suddenly 2 mini cockroaches appear and that 2 siao zha bor strted to scream.
And I came to the rescue...
Mini cockroaches looks more disgusting i still like adult ones better :)
Okay...
Then homed.
And going crazy bout weibo.
Now I am here posting and going to end the post right here. :D

Loves,
Kaiko

2011-03-14T00:39:00.002+08:00

Outing with My Beloved Wyan and Sinyi

Random zi-lian and show :X

Food! Yum-yum~ Ikea, Today :)

Last day with Mr Adrian~

2011-03-11T20:10:00.001+08:00

You said that seeing them walk together, looks weird.
But I wanted to tell you that, arent you the same?
We are not that close anymore :(

2011-03-07T17:46:00.001+08:00

As long as u are with that bastard just fuck off from my life thx...
That bastard cannot accept me and neither can i.
So be it.
And if you still think that i am angry, i dont give a damn!
Someday, i will start a fight with him again and you will be sandwiched.
Until the day, that bastard realised how much sufferings he has put everyone through, or he apologises,
Just FUCK OFF! You, him, whoever!

Just in case, you still dun get it.
Have you ever thought who made your life so miserable?
Its you, him and no one else!

2011-03-06T16:46:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna change because of him, I want my old friendship back.
If it doesn't come back then i shouldn't too...
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2011-03-06T15:47:00.001+08:00

I just dont wanna be related to the guy who ruin my friends' lives,
Miserably pathetic, why can't you just get it?!
You feel that love is more important than friendship so be it,
but I feel that friendship is more important...
And if it just take me to disown u to and ignore everything that he has done,
To not know if u feel sad or happy, I might just feel better, although i know u are not.
You just look as happy with ur life without me so why don't just leave it like that and continue
like nothing happen?
If i didnt do anything u might still hear my annoying rantings every morning thinking that i cant look at things at another perspective...
You know why? Coz i care a lot about our friendship, and if disowning u means that i can look at things
in another way like how the others do, well then why not?
Do you know how many ppl still think i am dumb to take my friendships so seriously?!
Persuading me to just leave everything alone???
And now i heeded their advice and try to treat everything like nth, but now they think i am so cold-blooded...
You said u needed someone who could look at the bigger picture, but i wasnt that kinda person if
that problem concern not just one of my friends.
So now i rather ignore the whole picture and get on with my pathetic life,
WTF do u still want from me now???

P.s. if you think it's easy for me to just disown a friend, sorry u are wrong...

2011-03-05T15:22:00.000+08:00

你的生活里没有我，有更开心一点吗？
去年你说你不会让我一个人过生日，
今年你的生日应该有人陪了，
今年你的生日我好想一个人过。

2011-03-05T12:38:00.000+08:00

I hate my ruined mood these days...
Sorry to vent my anger here :X
Some pics to calm everything down (although i know it will not)

Hyss Public Concert

Nom-nom wif Sinyi and Wyan

Random zi-lian pic :)

2011-03-05T12:21:00.002+08:00

I dont wanna be related to him in a way or another,
Just fuck off from me.

2011-03-02T17:02:00.001+08:00

蔡嘉蔚，你又看错人了。
要看错几个呢？

2011-03-01T20:18:00.003+08:00

I am tired.

我不认识你了。
不用解释，没这个必要。
失望了。
累了。
不想了。
不说了。

2011-02-27T20:01:00.002+08:00

【其实谁也不是谁的谁。】----谁是谁，谁遇见了谁，谁想谁，谁念谁，谁疼谁，谁爱谁，谁伤害了谁，谁离开了谁，其实谁也不是谁的谁。

2011-02-27T15:58:00.000+08:00

音乐结束了。
我们结束了。

前奏正是我们的开始。
歌词就是我们的故事。
曲子的结束是我们的句点。

有时候，我会再听一次。
有时候，我会莫名的哼起。
有时候，我听着落泪。
有时候，我会想起那些美好回忆。
有时候，我会想起我们如何放弃。

2011-02-26T11:42:00.001+08:00

Everything happens for a reason...

2011-02-20T18:53:00.000+08:00

女人真的只因为放弃而哭吗？

他不爱你了，他不值得你爱了。

数学教我们，
那两条平行线的故事，
那两条切线的故事，
那两条渐近线的故事，
还有那圆圈的故事。

化学教我们，
固体加热后颗粒就会离彼此更远，
液体加热后就会消失成气体，
消失后的气体会怎样呢？
要经历过许多才能变回固体。

2011-02-20T14:20:00.001+08:00

Math tell us 3 of the saddest love stories:

1) Of Parallel lines, who are never meant to meet.

2) Of Tangent lines, who were together once, then parted forever.

3) Of Asymptotes, who could only get closer and closer, but could never be together.

4) And of Circles, who never breaks apart.

Credits: YingQi

2011-02-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

他哭了。。。
她哭了。。。

男人哭了，因为他真的爱过。。。
女人哭了，因为她彻底放弃。。。

哭过，就好了。

2011-02-19T18:44:00.001+08:00

有时候，一个人也不错。

2011-02-13T13:28:00.000+08:00

我把它删了。
连同我们的记忆一起删了。

它就像一段3年的恋情。
它不是。
我不想回忆，
但我不能忘记。
他们说在一起多久就要用同样的时间忘记。
一样吗？
今年是第3年了。
但我不想忘记你。
你变了，
我变了，
这世界上有人记得以前的我们吗？
最近你消失了，
我想问，
我很好，那么你呢？
我想写下我们的回忆，然后再用新的掩埋它。。。

记得我们喜欢一起唱歌，
情歌？快歌？慢歌？
但你都会批评我。

记得我们会躺在学校对面的草坪，
像两个白痴。

记得我们都常骂彼此白痴，

记得我们一起养的my，
把它带到学校一起玩，放学后带它到游乐场玩。

记得我们一起分享秘密，
休息时，你狠狠哭了很久，
然后还能假装没事，继续上课。

记得我们什么都能一起做，
吃饭，睡觉，洗澡，换衣服。

记得你每次都问我：“我很可爱吗？”
我说：“可爱啊！”你都睁大眼睛说：“会吗？”
我说：“白痴！”你都说：“至少比你可爱吧。”

记得你都用开心的外表，藏起你脆弱的心。

记得每年的歌唱比赛你都会参加，而且一定会赢，
那年有老师说你对嘴，结果得了第二名，我们都为你打抱不平。

记得我们一起逛街，
可以什么都没买地逛一整天。

记得我送你的生日礼物，
那个永远都会在你身上的礼物。

记得你是唯一能不需要通知都能来我家的朋友，
你消失后，妈妈都在问，是不是我把你气走了。

记得你回中国时，我们一起视讯。
你妈妈好漂亮，你弟弟好可爱，
我们还一直坚持说自己的弟弟比较可爱。

记得每次听到周华健的那首歌时，你都会哭。
你说是你爸爸最喜欢的，也是狗狗不见时在德士上听见的。

记得你对茉莉花敏感，
有一次我用了茉莉花香的沐浴乳，还差点害你过敏。

记得我们常帮老师做东西，
每次都和老师聊得很开心。

记得我们的戏剧专题作业，
在组屋楼下试衣服被副校长抓到。

记得你被色狼骚扰，
我们花了好长时间摆平他。

记得你换监护人是我们多开心，

记得毕业后我们回学校帮忙，
好怀念啊！

记得我们说过要做一辈子的好朋友，

记得你说过我们不可能分开，

记得你不理我的那一天，

记得你骂我的那一天，

记得我哭了一整天的那一天，
对我说：“哭过就好了。”
那个人不是你。

记得我们还有好多好多回忆。。。

2011-02-10T22:27:00.001+08:00

人生可悲的是它不能重来，
可喜的是它也不需要重来。

2011-02-10T21:07:00.000+08:00

放手是为了遇见更好的，
分离是学着勇敢的开始。

他未必是最好的，
但他曾给你幸福。
他未必是最长的，
但他曾让你快乐。
他未必还在身旁，
但他曾牵起你的手。
他未必是你最爱，
但你们曾爱过。
他未必是你想的，
但他曾想过你。
你未必是他最爱，
但他曾说过：“我爱你。”

用开心掩饰，
用微笑释怀。

2011-02-09T18:21:00.001+08:00

【12星座最大的缺点是什么?】白羊座-心太软，金牛座-不太现实，双子座-不够坚强，巨蟹座-脾气不太好，狮子座-容易相信他人，处女座-太依赖别人，天秤座-心肠太好，天蝎座-太追求完美，射手座-有点任性，摩羯座-性格刚烈，水瓶座-对自己不够好，双鱼座-太过于追求时尚。
- from weibo :)

2011-02-05T17:41:00.001+08:00

爱是个动词。

2011-02-05T17:37:00.000+08:00

小蝴蝶一直告诉自己。。。

心再痛，也不能说。
泪再多，也不能流。
眼再痛，也不能红。
鼻再酸，也不能哭。
因为如果别人看见了会更伤心。
坚强的蝴蝶忍到最后都没哭。
却不知怎么在最后一秒，
她哭了。

因为她知道如果不哭，
心里的乌云就不会散去，
而当乌云累计就会变成无法控制的雷阵雨。

2011-02-03T19:50:00.001+08:00

告诉你一个秘密：“我爱你”

2011-02-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

生命中的那个“_____”按钮。

“起床”“刷牙”“洗脸”“冲凉”“换衣服”“吃早餐”“上厕所”“吃午餐”“上学”“读书”“上课”“走路”“坐下”“躺下”“听课”“做作业”“站起来”“吃晚餐”“看电视”“写字”“开灯”“关灯”“开门”“关门”“睡觉”“说话”“唱歌”“跳舞”“跑步”“游泳”“打电动”“打排球”“抱抱”“亲亲”“牵手”“撒娇”“爱”“恨”“想”“痛”“哭”“笑”“扔垃圾”“倒垃圾”“听”“看”“闻”“快转”“缓慢”“停止”....................
那么多的按钮中怎么能没有“倒带”“删除”“刷新”“重来”？？？

2011-02-01T20:32:00.000+08:00

眼泪
它就像雨，那么的突如其来。

毛毛细雨就有如开心地流泪。
这么的淡淡的来淡淡的去。
没有预备伞的下雨天，
就像寂寞时眼泪不知为什么的流下脸颊。
这么的突如其来。
倾盆大雨就有如伤心的大哭，
因为哭完心里的乌云就会散去。
雨过就天晴，哭过就心晴。
而在乌云散去后总会出现一道彩虹。
就像哭完后总会在模糊的泪水中看见更清晰的世界。

我的心正在下雨。。。
但我知道它的结束是我的重新开始。

2011-01-30T12:49:00.000+08:00

Kbox~

Random zi-lian pics...

The two-some...

The three-some plus chong sing

Other random pics...

2011-01-29T18:30:00.000+08:00

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with God, the Almighty.

He asked one of his new Christian students...

Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in God?

Student: Absolutely, sir.

Professor: Is God good?

Student: Sure.

Professor: My brother died of cancer, even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is God good, then? Hmm?

(Student was silent)

Professor: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Is Satan good?

Student: No.

Professor: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From.. God.

Professor: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?

Student: Yes.

Professor: So who created evil?

(Student didn't answer)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immortality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son.. have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your God.

Student: No, sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God, for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Professor: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, Science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.

Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student: No, sir, there isn't.

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of Heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was a pon-drop silence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light... But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and it's called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it is, You would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes of course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The class was in uproar)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?

(The class broke out into laughter)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? .. No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable and Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor: I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.

Student: That is it, sir.. exactly! The link between man and God is Faith. That is all that keeps things alive and moving!

That student was Albert Einstein.

Credits: Meiwen's blog.

2011-01-29T00:55:00.000+08:00

他们失去了什么呢？
他生命的沙漏停了。

他走了。
他的朋友少了一个朋友。
他的家人少了一个家人。
父母少了一个儿子。
子女少了一个爸爸。
孙子少了一个外公。
老婆少了一个爱人。
小狗少了一个主人。
车子少了一个司机。
他爱的人少了一个人爱。
爱他的人少了一个爱人。
但这世界从不为谁停止转动，
因为它知道还有人需要它。

他走了。
他呢？

2011-01-27T20:17:00.000+08:00

“嘉蔚，刚刚妈妈打电话来说外公去世了”
我的心凉了。

我第一次感受到这种感觉。
很独特。
当下的我不敢相信，
那块拼图就这样离开我了。。。
我真的失去他了。
我知道我不可能再找回他，
但我会永远记得和他在一起的时光。

但为什么妹妹能这么冷静地告诉我这个消息呢？！

2011-01-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

22nd Jan 2011

Went for Sports Extravaganza in the morning.
Mama sent me, Jing and Sinyi there.
You are the best! ^^
Went to find Qiqi.
Then all the crap comes in and the weather was like freakin H-O-T!
Dunno wad happen then dismissed us to let us walk walk and play games.
Mrs Ng's husband, parents and daughter, Jaimie, came.
Aw... Her daughter is SOOOOOO cute.
I wanna exchange my bro for her <3
:X Jk only.
Mr Lim wore 2e4 class tee :D
:( i miss 2e4 so much.
Kelian de Bei, dun sad le okays. We know you are the best jiu can le.
She didnt win with glory. :X
Hmm... anw, after back rushed home and prepare to go kbox :)
Went to Bei's hse meet her, Jing and Sinyi.
Headed to bus stop to meet Chongsing then we went to JP together.
Kbox at ard 3.
Sing, sang and sung until 5++ then Bei had to go for deon's sis bday.
I was all along playing wif jing de geek specs. :X
Chongsing keep playing wif the music.
Tell him sing oso dun wan. >.< Abit pekchek.
At ard 6++ Jing and Sinyi went for some Chingay thing then left me, Qiqi and chongsing.
Qiqi so bad every song that chongsing pick she say she dunno how to sing,
Then end up i sang all the songs wif him. x.x
My voice cui le la.
Went home at ard 6.45???
Met Mr Lim at the entrance.
Chit chat, Chongsing made him so irritated :X haha...
Damn funny XD
"Mr Lim, 120 bucks can go eat buffet le leh..." hahahahahahahahaha....
Was raining.
So me and qiqi decided to go home first.
The rain was like against like that.
B4 we started walking the rain was like so small then when we start walking the rain was like so big.
Half of my shirt was drenched. :(
Anw, had dinner wif qiqi then homed :D
Overall, quite eventful day. :D
Pictures, next time.
Gtg do hw le.
BB, miss me :)

2011-01-24T20:25:00.000+08:00

我呢？

谁来抚慰我脆弱的心呢？
谁在我生病时关心我呢？
谁在我不开心时陪我呢？
谁会知道我为何伤心呢？
谁会知道我心中的不愉快呢？
谁知道不开心是为了什么呢？
谁会知道他说的话伤到我了呢？

谁呢？

2011-01-23T15:18:00.000+08:00

他们都说。。。

把不好的留在今年，明年将会更好。
但为何不想想，明年的你，回想今年时难道都是不好的吗？
每年都这么说，那回想起过去，每年都是那么地悲伤。

2011-01-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

不知道为什么情人们总是吵架，而吵完后总会有人躲起来哭。
振作起来好吗？他只是一个男人，一个你知道不可能跟你度过一生的。（现阶段）
都发生了哭啥？明知道会这样，那为什么当初要吵架呢？
每次看到都觉得很烦eh。。。

2011-01-13T18:46:00.000+08:00

爱情。音乐。
爱情就有如扣人心弦音乐。
在朋友面前总是如此朗朗上口。

默默地暗恋，孤单的情歌。
纯纯的爱情，古典的音乐。
轰轰烈烈的爱情，疯狂摇滚的音乐。
单恋的爱情，没有音乐的歌曲。
失恋后的爱情，走音后的音乐。
享受着音乐带给生活的点缀。
享受着，点缀着生活的爱情。
听着，流泪。听着，欢笑。
这就是音乐。
想着，流泪。想着，微笑。
这就是爱情。
成千上万的歌曲，
成千上万的人们，
诉说着自己故事的歌曲只有一首，
那是作曲与作词人共同创造的。
能与自己写完故事的也只有一个，
那是你和他一起努力写出的。
没有音乐，
没有爱情，
那生活呢。。。

2011-01-12T19:11:00.000+08:00

为何人们对父母的刻板印象都是对孩子要求高。。。。。。
老师今天也这样说，
什么现在的社会竞争高，
要好好读书，考最好的成绩上最好的学校，
文凭很重要。。。稀里哗啦一大堆。
重点就是读书，读书，读书还有。。。
读更多的书。
但我总觉得我的妈妈却和别人不一样。
对考试成绩总是没什么要求，尽力就好。
没对不起自己就好。
上什么学校无所谓，开心就好。
选什么科目随便你，喜欢就好。
想要买什么任你挑，有钱就好。
想要做什么都可以，别错就好。
她就是那么的不一样，
有时我会觉得她比较像我的朋友。
就是这么的不一样。

2011-01-11T21:20:00.001+08:00

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2011-01-08T13:03:00.000+08:00

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

ARIES - The Aggressive

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny.. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be ‘Right’. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world..

From Sharon's blog :)
Its damn true...
Took Aries and Sagittaurus only :)

2011-01-08T12:57:00.000+08:00

Hiies...
I was wondering shld i go collect the book today :(
But i think i cant liao...
Next week bah,
I cant wait to get the book :)
Chua Wan Yan,
U better dun go out wif him next sat if not i bite you.
Anw,
DO SUPPORT: http://www.iluv-panda.blogspot.com/

2011-01-01T00:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

一个没有她的跨年
一个有他的跨年
填满了我贪心的心
祝大家新的一年身体健康哦

2010-12-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

明天。

20101231
一年一次的跨年。
自从我有记忆以来，
每年的这时我们总会一起躺在我的床上。
一起望着那小小的电视，
一起倒数。
一起在同各地方，
做同样的事，
有着同样的期盼，
有着同样的心情。
还记得去年，
倒数完，
我们一起在房里开一个迷你派对。
今年你不在了。
不再像去年一样，
不再像以往一样。
陪着我跨年。
我第一次没和你一起跨年。
我会想你的。
希望今年的跨年，
你在别的地方和别人一起跨年也能很高兴哦。